April 2012
1 post
June 2011
1 post
May 2011
1 post
(Happy mother's day) and have fun childing your...
There seems to be a status quo of believing that a child can never understand how parents arrive on decisions made for the benefit of their kids. Its the one line every parent uses to shut down any form of disagreements; and it could sound like this:
“One day when you become a parent yourself, then you’ll understand”.
But I don’t want to wait till then.
While in certain...
March 2011
1 post
January 2011
1 post
The New Year.
No title would describe this post with more clarity than this. It is the first post of the year and like any other year, I am obligated to dedicate number 1 to the prologue of what seems like a step closer to the person I would want to be.
I remind myself that we would most certainly be always wiser in mind than we really are in conduct; and this calls for much grace and grit to even go through...
November 2010
3 posts
Corelation.
I woke up this morning trying to remember when was the last time I was really felt afraid. Or at least an overwhelming sense of suspense in fear that the decisions I am about to make have the risk to attract disfavor towards my side. Every recent event that crossed my path seems to be processed with immense amounts of calculated risks and analysis before proceeding with action. While that in...
lovely nothings.
One of the reasons I keep staying up late these days, is because I really need to salvage some quiet moments. Some brief reflection before bed is something I cherish, tho what I miss now is those conversations over dinner that drift for hours without having any agenda to worry about thereafter.
October 2010
2 posts
Jaja.
I’m sitting in my cubicle sipping caramel tea right now. It does smell so much worst than it sounds, but once you get the gunk in your mouth it ain’t that bad. I finally begin to understand the huge commitment it takes for one to eat durian. Its when you have muster enough courage and take a big risk against your olfactory senses which tells you what kind of gross that you’ll...
Superfluous.
Clearly I must have mistaken my position in the classroom. The definitive title as a tutor is merely an obligatory role for me to offer advice and bring clarity through my area of expertise. But within a classroom itself- feeding off the sum of the 30 odd minds charging an atmosphere of creative effervescence; no matter how unpolished or naive I think they might be, I find myself at the seat of...
September 2010
1 post
Whoa Awesome.
Via the sartorialist
August 2010
2 posts
Sum ups.
Its been a while since I’ve posted anything text based; and I kinda think I’ll just do that:
1) With all my heart I really believe that God works all things out for good for us- and He loves to keep it very much like these secret birthday parties your closes friends throw for you every year. You kinda expect it coming, sans all the details of how its gonna happen. But you know its...
Omnomnom.
July 2010
3 posts
and your eyes.
June 2010
6 posts
Sum ups.
Alain de Botton says that its easy to be skeptical about things that do not fundamentally sustain us.
1. It seems that these days I thread idealism with care more than usual not because of the lack of faith; but because most of the times assurance based on gathered facts is more of a conjuration of one’s mind that it is an objective certainty. I wonder if I were to be able to put all eggs...
24 more days to go before...
Mundae. (sum ups)
1) I had a weird dream of various thoughts and events being stitched together seamlessly. Trip with college mates. Bird Park. Getting loss driving in complex roads. Good old yesterdays happening today. Anxiety of starting something new with the old things. And I woke up with sheer disbelief that all those are a figment of my suppressed desire to relive nostalgic memoirs. There’s just too...
And the matter of today is...
1 tag
Piecemeal process.
I’m back at home again trying my best to squeeze some brains out of my time (at the same time trying not to wring it too tight it ends up withered like a little prune) - Just to try and put a mental bookmark to some of the thoughts I need to process, as well as some key texts that I need to go through later on.
Its quite crucial to start off with the right foot, that every initiative of...
1 tag
A preview of apathy.
Text posts are hard to come by these days. Now that new tasks are at hand, I am suppose to be in a way, more vigorous in documenting more thoughts to contribute to further research projects revolving around the apathetic notions that manifest within our dealings with faith.
1. There’s always this boldness that accompanies those that find themselves least concerned about what others think...
May 2010
3 posts
Lesson 2.
Inevitable unnecessaries.
April 2010
3 posts
Minizine.
Its the time of the month again.
Aaah I can't wait anymore!
Please let me know its hereeee >.<
mlah.
Hello.
Most of the recent events revolving around my life has left me speechless, to say the least- And its not necessarily because of the way things happen specifically; but more of the order of which things happened, and perhaps coupled with my own idealistic analysis of how events could possibly co-relate into this one sound message of how God is definitely faithful & at times, quirky in...
March 2010
3 posts
Vaingloriously,
Should I get the turquoise one?
To the enchanted place we go!
… But when we were there and I saw anything less than a sparkle in her eyes or the look sans the marvel I expected to see, I concluded that I was doing everything but the right thing. Its amazing how the apathy from people we try desperately to please would make us think we’re the bore, while anybody else that mattered less to us is usually the dull one when they are the least...
February 2010
9 posts
Sum ups.
1) The year never tires. I’m expecting things to chill down after studies, but as a matter of fact it has become more pressurizing especially at work. Its almost as tho every day I live by a string of His grace sustaining the bigger set of shoes that greet my doorstep.
2) CNY is thus far, quite thrilling. I had a horde of my nephews and nieces running around my aunt’s place like...
“Yeahuh. Some invite Jesus to their hearts but charge Him rental to stay.”
There's no escape from mommy's love!
I just came back from camp; and after having quite a fantastic time with the campus students I noticed that index finger didn’t quite recover properly from the tiny injuries due to excessive force in yanking out the wooden chopsticks from the ground.
I kinda concluded that there are wooden splinter bits stuck in between my dermis.
With mental images of my festering wounds and pus that...
Beyond the courtesy of an acquaintance.
This year now that my to buy shopping list has dwindled and now my robot hunting seasons have slowed down drastically due to me not being able to complete painting those little masterpieces before my next purchase- I have developed a new obsession. And while quite a few times it has really tug my heartstrings just by recalling it, I actually feel a greater weight everytime I fail to practice it.
...
“and I quote myself, “so far I haven’t seen any good...”
downsy daisies day.
8pm- I was walking alone in an open carpark on a hot Monday night when it dawned upon me that things couldn’t possibly get any more uneasy as this. The warm dusty gush of polluted city air added to the torment of lingering annoyance; almost reminding me that there’s not much comfort to be found beyond weekday’s 6pms.
Dry seasons do not begin with a pummeling crash of events. its...
January 2010
8 posts
“No, don’t be yourself. Cuz a self-defined “being yourself” is...”
Perpetual Inner Child - 2 : Serious Man - 0
Noooo not the donat boiii!!!
Perpetual Inner Child - 1 : Serious Man - 0
Aah, what a weird looking robot…
Buy.
Thought picks of the week.
1) At least 3 people have came up to my and asked me whether I use cologne or not. I usually answer yes, and ask if the way I smell is being repulsive or not. Their answer? “Nope, cuz you don’t smell like anything at all.” My thoughts? “Isn’t that… good? and besides its really weird and redundant to ask a question like that right? I mean… Its almost like...
My earnest attempt to pull off a Hemingway.
So God remained uncontested until you came along- For what is love without the fear of loss, and what is faith without the chance to doubt?
And if all this were never true;
means I never really did… love you.
Twilight that initiates the fleeting yay-boo...
Yay for another year of God-given unmerited favor with my boss(es- cuz i report to both MDs, and GMs); and for an awesome appraisal. Yay for how God orchestrated all things, all work to be done (most in which felt almost impossible for a normal human to achieve)… but it is finished, somehow! Yay I’m done with my MA studies! Yay I’m scheduled to go to UK for a visit (fully paid)...
The reason of season.
Resolutions.
It was merely a few hours ago whereby what’s intended to achieve in 2010 (in a ritualistic attempt to have a good year)- begun.
In all that happened; the second, minutes, hours, days,months - of 2009. The sum of it is too cumbersome for a word or sentence to define; but amazingly it takes just a significant event of emotional impact to tip the entire scale of it being defined...
December 2009
2 posts
Ok. So this was me, me and Garage band in 3 takes...
20 more to oblivion.
I owe myself a long-smooth quiet drive back home today.
There’s always something sacred, something serene about the dark un-lit roads of Ara Damansara that I enjoy strolling about pointlessly while I do some reflection. I know that if my mind were to go through my “to do list”, I would feel utterly disappointed with myself of how far I am in completing everything in spite of...