Resolutions.

It was merely a few hours ago whereby what’s intended to achieve in 2010 (in a ritualistic attempt to have a good year)- begun.

In all that happened; the second, minutes, hours, days,months - of 2009. The sum of it is too cumbersome for a word or sentence to define; but amazingly it takes just a significant event of emotional impact to tip the entire scale of it being defined “good” or “bad” enough to either “look forward” or “escape into” something else.

What is “significant” doesn’t necessarily mean is “important”, and vice versa. Thats something I try to remind myself as the year goes by. It took me prolly 3-4 drafts for me to craft this post; and most probably, many minutes or hours have been sacrificed to produces draft phrases and paragraphs that the world will never see. What is “waste” anyway. I don’t know. Maybe its the way we get discouraged at how we fail to achieve our intended purposes. But as I try to craft my own milestones of progress for 2010- maybe its really not so much about… achieving anymore. Maybe I should, or would, want to look at the “being” behind the “achieving”.

As much as I know this will be thwarted repeatedly-I think maybe behind all that I hope to see in 2010; is that in all that I do, I’d choose whats right even if its implications were to never see the light of day.